today was like any other day really. i ate, played a bit with the child i take care off, and later went back to my room to read for a while.
nothing unusual happened. just a normal, quiet day.
at one point i was lying in bed, bored, and my mind started doing what it sometimes does without asking. i started thinking about "what if it goes wrong?". about situations and people that make me happy right now, and then my head automatically flips into this space where i imagine losing it all.
it's strange how quickly that shift happens. from calm to overthinking something that isn't even happening.
i'd describe today as disconnected, in a way that's hard to explain. like i was there, but not fully mentally present.
nothing really affected me in a big way today. it was more just the weight of my own thoughts moving in the background.
i kept overthinking small things all day.
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